I want to cry

I want to cry
But maybe I'll cry out to You instead.
Or maybe both

Don't know what's going wrong today...interactions with colleagues just all around difficult. No point in having that afternoon meeting if we cannot first figure out how to do it better.

I need to get myself in order, then be able to love and hear others.
Do I need a nap?
Do I need to pray?
God, what happened?
Now is 'examen' time--Lord, I've thanked you, that I can see these negative emotions, that I realize stuff like this always happens around this time of year.
Examen step 2: Lord, please show me my sin, not just the surface sin, but the roots...

Today, Revelation...freaky image of Jesus with a sword coming out of His mouth. Was I communicating with a sword coming out of my mouth this a.m.?  I didn't think so, and if I was, probably not the same as what the image of Jesus was meant to provoke.

Jesus, in the middle of this day.
I cry out to you
I don't know what's wrong
I just know some things aren't right
and I don't want this day to continue, or to end, the way it is now.

Somehow step in
Show me who You are
Help me rise above
Change this heart
Bring joy and peace, and renewed perspective.