Alone

Alone...
Utterly alone
Not seeing much hope for even trying
To work with others
To find a way
The part of me that can separate from me
And look at me
Sees me going to a very unhealthy place
God have mercy...
Where will this go?
Where will this end?

How can I survive?
How can I live healthy?

It seems...
For my own sanity...
I need to go back to that "quitting" idea

But...quit what?

I will look at my lists...
The ideas I had before...

Actually, the "quitting idea" was
Quit everything and start over
But...I'm not quite sure how to do that in real life

God, how I need You here
Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me...a sinner.