Hope

Why does a heart keep hoping
When hope only brings pain

Hope disappointed robs all energy
I've experienced that

But I wish I could turn off the "hoping"
Why can't I just stop, give up, not risk it

Why can't I just believe
Really believe
What is more likely
What the facts seem to point to
What would be easier

But no
This heart grasps at any slight glimmer of hope
This heart hopes
And betrays me
It's like it stabs itself

Hoping...
Is so painful...

Jesus...please lead my heart...