God help.
I am a mess.
There is nothing in me today that wants to hold the course, work hard, put up with stuff, press on.
I just want to lay down and die...well, figuratively speaking. Lay down, give up, not push through.
Yeah, I'm fighting something...physically. I'm sure it plays a role.
And I'm tired. 
I'm tired of setting up processes that don't get followed through.
I'm tired of others not following through on things they are responsible for.
I'm tired of having to remember, and remind and... the brain load that adds.
And somehow today I think that let's me have a lousy attitude, give up on my responsibilities, think You aren't enough for this...
But that's all wrong... I know
Stinking attitude right on through...
God... this is me
The real me
The one You love
The one...I wish wasn't like this

Yesterday read about 4 Assumptions... Read and agreed, yet today...
God help