I cry out to You
I'm overwhelmed...again.
I don't know how to face it all...again.
The study I'm in is asking and causing me to reflect on...
What is my sense of YOU?
Do I really believe I am loved by You?
What is my sense of hope?
What is my sense of You actively involved in my life?
O Lord
I ... I believe, but
Help my unbelief
Lord, I need to know Your love today
I need to find strength to face the day
To faithfully do my work
To do what I can
With confidence that You'll make it work out
Ah, whether I have "confidence" or not
You will make it work out
I will get to the end of this day, and it will be okay
So why worry?
How I need to know Your love today
Maybe I've known it in the love of my sister
She gave thanks for me
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Don't seem to fit with "amazing, loving, wonderful"
And...
I'm not very strong today
Jesus, help me to believe You rejoice over me
How can I believe it?
How can I know it?
I can I almost believe it when I know
how I rejoice over and enjoy others
And if that is how I feel, it's probably how You feel
and so much more
I believe
Help my unbelief
Maybe I'm just so tired...
...
Terror overtakes me when I look and it seems
There is NO WAY to succeed in the tasks ahead
the feeling of impending doom
the knowing I will fail
the meetings today, ongoing for 2 days
I'm afraid I'll be stressed, and frustrated,
and not communicating well with others
the conversation I need to have with others
I'm afraid I'll get frustrated, and angry and
feel hurt at being judged and misunderstood
Can I somehow be "indifferent" (Ignatius) to all the feelings?
Can Your mercy somehow meet me here?
Can I rely on you?
Hope in Your unfailing love>
And ... face it all in peace?
Not wander into all that anxiety and stress?
Is it true You are watching over me today?
Am I one of the ones who "fear You"?
Do I "rely" on Your unfailing love enough
to qualify for the watchful care and help?
Lord, on my own, I will get nowhere
This day, these events truly WILL be a mess
Failure
I turn to You
I cry out to You
in hope
for mercy
for strength
for miracles
of insight and wisdom
and grace and patience
For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from Him alone comes my salvation.
He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress;
I shall never be shaken
Ps. 62:1-2
The LORD watches over those who fear Him,
those who rely on His unfailing love.
Ps. 33:18
As much as I am able
I wait on You today
I rely on Your unfailing love
