Still Seeking Your Face

God...
I'm talking about it more in other places
but I'm still seeking Your face
I'm still crying out.

Thank You
There seem to be some answers
Some clarity has come
Much is being resolved

Yet I'm not sure
Have I heard correctly
It needs to be confirmed
By others
And then there is the follow through


Much courage has come
From
   strengthened vision
   people offering help
   gifts being recognized
   and used

But will I doubt again
Will I stall and delay
When faced with reality once again
   alone in the actual implementation
   opposition
   detractors
   and just so much to do

The default
The easy
Will be to just fall back
Same old patterns


Lead me LORD
Hold me LORD
Show me how to live
To live different from here
To follow through
  

lost

Jesus, I'm a little lost today
It's good that I'm finally crying I suppose
Finally settling in
Finally getting to the heart of the matter(s)
Finally becoming aware of
and naming
what is the real pain
and bringing it to You
Finally

Lead me Lord
Hold me Lord
Speak
...the words
...the truth
I long to hear

How I need to know You
know You here
know You near