Jesus...

Jesus...

Jesus...

Jesus...

Weak, hurting...

God, what do You want of me?
What should I do?
How should I be seeing all this?
How am I supposed to go on?
Where can I find motivation?
Why does this hurt so much?
When will it stop hurting?
Why do I feel so trapped?
How and when and what is the way out of this trap?
When I am weak, then am I strong?
Nah, this is just...
    weak,
    very weak,
    nothing but weak

But
What do You want of me?
What are You doing in this?
Take me where You want me to go
Make of me what You want
Lead me
But first...
please hold me...

and do what You want with me.