Jesus...
Today, all I can see is...
failure
problems
obstacles
All I can feel is...
hurt
pain
alone in the struggle
This week's morning journey
Is dry and bland
and HARD
Ps. 85 for a morning prayer, the invocation, benediction
no inspiration
And I I keep hearing is
"Stay awake, stay alert, don't stop"
"Don't let Him come back and catch you sleeping"
Today, I just cried
I'm trying
But somehow
It's not enough
I don't know where to find the energy
There must be a different way to do this work
And I've been asking for years
I...
Have not yet seen a solution
God help
Is it just the discipline and muscle-building of perseverance
that You want?
Who cares about the results
or meeting more of the needs?
But God,
the needs are so many
I can't stop from trying to do "more"
But doing "more"
Ends up burning out...
me
my colleagues
the staff for whom I am responsible
What am I doing wrong?
What needs to change?
God, please send your answers
please send your help
I don't know how long I can go on
