Well, I guess this IS coming, it's the only way I know how right now.
I'm a mess.
Today...pretty much all I can see is failure.
And so lacking...is any desire (well, almost all lacking) to face life, face work, face the problems, face the people.
Please help.
What is wrong with my perspective?
What am I seeing incorrectly?
Why this "give up" that rises so strong at times?
You, God, are strength,
"a very present help"
As M.A. said, there will never be a time where I will look back and find You were not there.
So I cry out to You for help today.
Help me Lord, to find the hope I need, the faith I need.
Help me to want to try.
And, oh God, can You please send some other physical help? Help at the level of administering, deciding, directing. This burden feels so heavy. I feel so all alone and incompetent. I'm not leading well. They deserve better than this.
And today I read...and choose to believe
And my God will supply
every need of yours
according to His riches
in glory in Christ Jesus
Phil.4:19
